6 December 2013 diary

6 December 2013 diary.

 

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

 

It's Friday but it's only a Friday. There was nothing special about this Friday.

I went to work on time. I did not see my boss much of this day.

The work was busy in the morning but it went very quiet in the afternoon.

I ate rice and chicken curry for lunch.

Finally work was finished and weekend came. I walked to St Mary Cathedral to pray to God the Father for my life and my other friends too. Yongky waited for me and we went to Saigon to have dinner. I went home to take rest until evening.

I started feeling lonely and a bit sad so I chose to enhance my film to better quality.

I slept after listening to happy music at night.

I prayed again before sleeping to God for me and all my male and female friends.

 

It was the end of that Friday.

5 December 2013 diary

5 December 2013 diary.

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

I thought I could be late going to work but I came on time. Thanks God.

This day work was busy in the morning but it became very quiet in the afternoon until work was over for the day. I ate Ratatouille for lunch and I went to Sienny’s birthday dinner on Albany highway. The dinner was delicious. I met most of my Christian gathering friends.

I went home in a little bit of happy mood but minutes after minutes my sad feeling gradually came back I quickly opened my computer and listened to music which make me happy again. I also tested my friend’s computer for hours and the problem seemed not happening. I finally turned it off before I slept.

I decided to sleep after I received sms from my mom in Jakarta.

Before I slept I prayed to God as usual.

Yeah, that’s all I could write.

4 December 2013 diary

4 December 2013 diary.

 

Good morning to everyone in Heaven and earth,

She appeared in my dream again this time I could talk to myself: “There is nothing I can do, only God can make or change His decision”. I felt a sad a bit in the morning but I had to be strong.

I forced myself to get up, be strong, and went to work. I ate the breakfast energy food but I still felt hungry so I bought a 45g crisps. I think I will gain weight again but I will fight it again.

Work was very busy in the morning but it went quiet later. I felt so sleepy and tired at work but the crisps kept me awake.

I ate spaghetti bolognaise for lunch. Thanks God, work was finally over so I went home in happiness. Before I went to the train station I stopped to talk to a Catholic sister in the city centre in front of Perth Post Office. I gave an envelope containing $100 to her to be donated to poor people and whoever needs supports in Calcutta in India. She told me that the money would be sent to Sydney before going to Calcutta. I forgot to write a word ‘Donation’ on the envelope, it was only a plain white envelope with no writing. So I really hope that the envelope would not be forgotten or lost.

When I arrived home, I started feeling lonely again. I felt I was very guilty to my friends.

My God, I made a very big mistake to my friends including Yongky, Tania, my Christian gathering friends, and other people as well, I did not want to reveal it to them because I was afraid they were going to hate me more. My God and My Lord, I only can admit this big mistake to You. I am really sorry my God.

I chose to sleep to cool myself. I got up at 9pm and ate an instant cheap noodle for my dinner. After that I logged in to my Picasa to delete many photos before I would upload the much better version. I also tested Yongky’s computer but there was no sign of error yet. I spent the rest of the night listening to happy songs.

I pray to God about myself, Yongky, Eric, and other people before I slept and I after I received an sms from my mom in Jakarta.

Thank you for reading.

3 December 2013 diary

3 December 2013 diary.

 

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

 

Please forgive me my God. This day was another day and would be very last day ever I did not come to work because of last month incident plus I was very upset about my friend stupid message on WhatsApp.

This day was the day I really wanted to relax and the day I could have time to erase all my bad and sad memory about her.

I really hoped that my boss would be all right with me when I come to work on the next day.

 

I lied to my friend Yongky that I came home from work earlier but indeed I did not come to work at all. I had to lie to him because I did not want him to give me a similar lecture like my other friend did to me yesterday.

 

I ate Hainanese chicken rice at Southland for lunch. After that I went to St Thomas Moore church to ask a forgiveness to God. But the church was locked. Yongky came to my house at 6pm to ask me for help to fix his computer. He brought his computer and it would stay at my house until Friday. So far his computer was running good. We wanted to go to Batavia corner, but on the way we suddenly decided to stop and ate at Bali Cuisine restaurant. The restaurant was very empty and the food was not cheap too. I ate nasi soto ayam and ice chendol and Yongky ate chicken.

 

I came home to take shower; after that I posted many Tweeter tweets regarding my website. That was the most number of tweets in a day due to my website was greatly updated with many new albums.

After that I played Wii Fit Plus for 56 minutes and I burnt 236 calories on this day. I will definitely beat this record before this year's end.

 

I called my mother in Jakarta. I told her that I was all right and I was not sad anymore.

It is now time for me to sleep because I really must go to work.

 

Good night.

2 December 2013 diary

2 December 2013 diary.

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

This day was another very flat day. It was a day when I had to go through with closed eyes. I felt like I don’t want to live and I don’t want to die. I only can wait for what God the Father is planning for me.

I was very afraid to look back and I could feel that someone was calling my name behind me. I tried to forget everything in the past. At around lunch time, I got WhatsApp messages from one of my Christian gathering friends; his message drove me mad and angry. He gave me a bitter lecture which relates to his faith; but two hours later he called me to apologise so I forgave him completely. Dear friends and people, I don’t want any lectures about this anymore. What I really want from people is to pray for me so I can feel much better.

Work was very busy on this day and the work also drove me mad too. Thanks God I finally finished work on this day. I ate Sushi for lunch and Subway for dinner. At home in the evening I had to fight a very fast moving tarantula which was very hard to get rid of, I was very tired. I decided not to improve my videos.

I called my dad and I spoke to my brother; finally I talked with my mom.

After that I started feeling lonely again, I feel a bit bad, I could not say that I am having an anxiety because I was not afraid of what would happen next. What I am thinking now is: why am I becoming so worthless like this. I felt very guilty to everyone including God and many of my friends. Yes I admitted that I did a very big mistake to everyone.

I decided to open my Facebook to see what has happened, I only found boring posts from my friends and nothing else. Ooooh wait! How about messages? Tania has not replied me yet since 17 November 2013. I felt like I was thrown back to October last year where I finally got the first message from her a year later that means I will receive a message from her around August 2014. She definitely ran away from the terrible 13 November incident. If I am waiting for her reply day-by-day then I will definitely die for sure. But I am telling all of you now that I am going to forgive all her mistakes that she did to me in the past and I tell you that I promise that.

I will pray to God for everyone including Yongky, Eric, and my other friends including Tania, Petra, and many friends.

It’s the time for me to sleep so Good Night to all readers.

1 December 2013 diary

1 December 2013 diary.

 

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

 

This day was only a very flat Sunday, there was nothing special happening. Four more weeks to Christmas.

 

I was very lazy on this day, I woke up at 10am but decided to sleep again until 2pm. I got up feeling very hungry so I went to Jester to eat Popeye pie.

I went to Applecross to find the best spot for my next costume photo shoot with Yongky (planning).

I went to City of Melville council and found a very good spot, entered Garden City shopping centre to buy 1 meter Cat 6 cable. I would never buy anymore cable until the next time I buy a new router.

 

I went home to do big house clean up including throwing away a very heavy diesel generator, broken microwave, water hoses, and a fat burning bicycle.

I went to church but I was 8 minutes late.

 

At Yuki Japanese restaurant I ate too much food and spent too much money for that dinner. I promised that this was the last time I ate that much and I would never eat that much food again.

I think I would get weight again, so I fought it by playing Wii Fit Plus later in the evening. After that I opened up my computer to listen to energetic Japanese songs and a popular Japanese song too. If I could sing this song I would make my Japanese friends proud especially the Japanese girls.

 

I am sorry God, I wasted too much time listening to songs.

I am going to sleep now, work tomorrow, and as usual I will pray for everyone too.

Tomorrow I am going to video edit (improving) my film to much better version.

 

Good night everyone.

30 November 2013 diary

30 November 2013 diary.

 

Dear everyone in Heaven and earth,

 

I slept so well today but I suddenly had a sad dream again so I woke up at 10am and waited until that feeling went away so I could sleep again.

My God, what is wrong with me? I was trying to forget everything about 13 November but she still appeared in my dream and she made me very sad.

I woke up again at 12 noon and got up. My friend Ming came to my house to borrow my bank approach.

I went out to have lunch at Southland shopping centre, I met a Taiwanese girl named 'Barbie' (what a strange cute name), she worked at Furusato Japanese food kiosk and she smiled at me but I did not buy anything from her kiosk. I ate spicy chicken gozleme next to it.

I bought a discounted toilet tissue and went to a hobby shop to buy a flat white paint.

I went to Carousel shopping centre to buy a lens cleaner brush and then went home.

I checked my Facebook and there were nothing important or serious.

I had a very short rest before I got up and played Wii Fit Plus.

 

Yongky came to my house to have dinner at Yum Cha House. We ordered a lot of dim sum food, the porridge smelt burnt so I asked the staff to cancel it and chose bean sprout noodle. I never want to eat porridge at that restaurant anymore. The dinner was expensive but I was happy to pay.

Yongky went home with me and we talked at home for approximately 1 hour about girls and relationships, about my work, and my life too.

 

After he drove away, I came back to my computer to copy all the videos and uploaded Nopie's friend videos from my camera. I also tried to fix Yongky's USB thumb drive without success.

 

Before I slept I decided to listen to some Japanese songs from old Japanese tv drama. I tried to learn to sing that song so I someday can make my Japanese friends proud of me if I sing that song.

 

My God and My Lord, it was the time for me to sleep again. I don't know what will happen to me tomorrow.

 

That's all.